unexpected

who would have ever thought,
that today,
the day that i was supposed to have fun
and that i was supposed to smile from ear to ear
became the worst day ever
that i ended up crying in this small space of mine

dont ask me why,
it's rather personal
but this is not the first time
i have been hurt because of this personal
i think i'm already used to it
it's just that my tears wont dry off

trust me,
i tired of crying over and over again
yes, i do feel better after crying
but it does me no good
when the problem hits me again,
my solution is to cry
i'm becoming weaker and weaker everyday
i lost myself
i have no reasons to live
and so,
this would be the perfect timing to die

i'm badly hurt inside

nursyasya