i'm such a fool

satu comment je, satu ayat je, aku boleh tear up mcm ni.. menyesal plak bkk notifications. patotnya aku abaikan je tadi.. hati aku crushed, kecewa, tersentap, hiba.. hah, rasa mcm org paling bengong pulak kat dunia ni sbb nk menangis psl bnda ni.. come on la syasya, you're stronger than this, what happened?! where on earth is that syasya?! bknnya ko xtau bnda ni ada possibility nk jadi, ko da prepare for the worst pon kan? then suddenly bila btol2 jd mcm ni, blh pecah empangan apehal? kenapa lembik sgt? kata haritu dah redha, da pasrah.. sekarang mana redhanya? mana pasrahnya? airmata tu apsal keluar? apa benda semua ni, syasya?!!

jgn jadi bodoh, jgn jadi gila, jgn buang masa.. lupakan perasaan tu, abaikan semuanya.. xmembawa apa2 kebaikan pon pada ko.. jadikan ko seorang yg lembik lg adala.. rasanya dulu ko jugak yg ckp ko xphm dgn org couple clash, frust menonggeng, nangis smpai airmata darah, mcm itu pengakhiran dunia.. ko ckp dorg semua bodoh sebab nangis psl couple yg blm tntu jd psgn yg sah.. sekarang ni keadaan ko xsama? apa bezanya ko dgn dorg? ko pon nangis psl bnda bodoh jugak kan? tuing, kene batang hidung sendiri balik.. kejap je Dia nk tunjuk..

tolonglah syasya, sedarlah! perasaan tu xkemana pon, ko sorg je yg merasa.. so lupakanlah.. drpd ko nk mkn hati lg mcm ni, xde ribut xde taufan tetiba hujan petir,  ada baiknya lepaskan je semua ni.. bebaskan diri ko drpd menyimpan semua tu.. rasanya Allah da lama tggu ko.. kenapa x ko cuba dekati Dia? konfem Dia terima.. ko luahkan perasaan ko Dia dengar, ko mintak apa2 Dia bagi, ko sunyi Dia teman, anytime anywhere, free of charge lagi.. He makes such a great partner, you know? so instead of wasting your love for someone who doesnt even know your existance, why dont you GIVE ALL of your love that you have to Him? love Him your whole heart, He will love you back.. love Him unconditionally, He will love you more.. remember Him always, you'll find peace..

dear syasya,

Love Him, not him
Remember Him, not him
Miss Him, not him
and you'll be the happiest person on Earth..

yours sincerely,
your heart..